True Story: MY WRONG MARRIAGE- By Aviomoh Skyfoxx Krys

                            

The dream of an average Nigerian girl is to get married. It's not that we girls are not ambitious for other goals as the male folks, neither are we deficient in intelligence; but it's the norm the society has forced us to adopt. This sometimes have us trapped in a myriad of mistakes when we make our choices of future partners in a hurry, in a bid to be tagged 'Mrs', and to escape the pressure and mockery of family and friends. Right now, I live every day of my life wallowing in emotional pains, for the wrong choice I've made. I got married two months ago. I don't love my husband, the sight of him irritates me, and each time he wants to make love to
me, I feel so uneasy and sad. He'd asked me why I'm always still and indifferent when he's making love to me, for the few times I've allowed him see my nakedness.


Three months ago, I was a happy girl, but now it seems that happiness is so far from me as heaven is far from the earth, because of a choice I made under pressure to get married.
Jude was the first guy I ever loved. He's everything I desired for a husband. Jude and I dated for over seven (7) years. We were both happy together, and we had many plans, one of which was to get married someday and have children. Jude and I met during our early years at the polytechnic. He's loving, caring, and handsome. What more could I ask for? But as the years went by, it dawned on me that there was more to ask for. I had to ask for marriage. I needed to get married. After school and the usual NYSC, I got a job, and Jude got a job too. I'd attended several weddings, sewn many aso-ebis, and had been a chief bridesmaid to about three of my friends, and then the urge to get married began to surge like an ocean disturbed by a turbulent weather. The pressure from my parents thickened year after year, and the only thing that mattered in the world to me at that time was marriage. Sadly, Jude wasn't ready for marriage yet.

 He had a building project he wanted to see to its completion before we could get married. How was I ever going to wait for Jude to finish building his house before I could get married? No way! I'd waited long enough. I just couldn't wait anymore. Then came Tony. Tony was ready for marriage, and so I started dating him secretly for Jude not to know. Within few weeks into my affair with Tony, he started pushing; insisting he sees my parents so we could commence marriage plans. I took Tony to my parents, and they were happy.

Obviously, they had waited too long for this moment, and so they gave Tony a warm reception. Things happened so fast, and within just few weeks we had printed wedding invitations. At this time, I told Jude I was getting married to another guy. He tried convincing me to stay with him, but my mind was made; I was done with him. A week later, just a week to our wedding, I started feeling so unhappy. Something just wasn't right. There had to be something wrong, and all I could figure out was the fact that I don't love Tony.

I could not imagine myself spending the rest of my life with him. So I was compelled to call my best love, Jude, and told him I was about getting married to a man I don't like because he'd delayed me for too long. I wanted to call off the wedding and go back to Jude, but Jude advised me to go ahead with the wedding since we had already invited people: what would people say should they hear I've called off the wedding? So I took his advice, covered my eyes and ate the raw worms. Deep down, I was in pains, but who would understand what I was facing?


Tony and I got married less than two months ago. Since then, I've known no happiness; sadness and pains are my meal and drink; the sight of my husband, Tony, irritates me. I don't have any love for him. I always take some pills after undergoing that sad and un-enjoyed sex with Tony so I don't get pregnant. I really want to leave this marriage; it's hell for me. I just can't cope. I want to run away.

Jude and I have been communicating, and I've told him all I'm going through. I really need Jude back in my life. Jude, after confirming from me that I'm not yet pregnant for Tony, has promised to take me back and marry me if I'm able to leave Tony. But we know it's not going to be easy, but we are prepared to take the risk. I know I'm not making sense, but only me knows what I'm going through. Jude and I both need counseling on how to go about this; that's why I need your opinions.




Aviomoh Skyfoxx Krys is a writer and publisher of Cosmic Ray Magazine..